Do you have a lifelong mission in order to make sense for the rest of your life?
A person who has a lifelong mission is "balanced and stable" in his daily life very much more than you ignorantly imagine. Because such person has decided matters he carries out.
Everything regarding the direction and quality of your future hinges upon you, especially, "how you treat yourself." Intrinsically, the critical question for you to think of is the following matter.
You have two alternatives regarding your future. The one is to make sense as a being who received life and intellect. The other is to finish your life as a "frog-spawned homunculus" who doesn't make sense as a being who received the two, life and intellect.